Oh my god, chill bruh. Just because you respect your parents doesn’t mean you suck. I mean if you really want to go then figure something out with your parents but if you still can’t just go home a little earlier or something.
And for your question, no you do not suck, its okay to be restricted just don’t sweat about it too much, life is more than sweating about not being able to go to Festivals and stuff. But if you are going to Urbanscape do hit me up, I’m going too!